Home-sick

Alritey...that feeling of "home-sick" is sucking into me already!

I was totally fine about my decision of going back later and spending lesser time at home this summer break because of work. And now, I'm having this tiny feeling that I wish I had not chosen that choice. Exactly one year ago, I was about to board my flight at this hour heading home and I was totally excited about it. This year? Sitting here at work waiting for the next 2 months to pass by for my turn to head home.

I have to admit that I'm starting to get jealous of hearing people flying back or they are already back home =( Eventhough many of my friends are here for summer, yet my friends and family back in Ipoh can never be replaced. After all, they are the people that I care and love most =( Oh my gosh, I WANNA GO HOME!

My Actuarial Girls =)

Yo peeps!

Exams are finally over!!!! And obviously, it is the time to start packing up the books and keep it away for a good 3 months! No more excuses for not going out and spend =) In this weekend only, I did some shopping, lots of eating, played my first pool game with the guys and most importantly...did some catching up with friends =)

I did mentioned before that this semester was one of my happiest as well as one of my saddest. I've met wonderful and awesome friends throughout this year and it kills me that most of them are graduating this year! I wished I had spent more time with this bunch of great people! Therefore, the highlight of my weekend is not shopping but to spend some time with these 2 girls =) Selina and Chia Ling.

Chia Ling, a bright and happy student from Ipoh. I remember Sue first told me about her when I applied to come to Macquarie. Sue always said "You should meet up with Chia Ling! She is a very nice person!". Undoubtly, she is what Sue had described to me. She is friendly, she is nice, she is funny, she is AWESOME! although with slight blurness =p Did I mentioned she's smart too? I guess Ipoh lang clicked instantly. We laughed and talked about almost everything about Ipoh =) I just wished I had met her earlier...It was not until my second semester that I finally met her after hearing so much about her from Sue. And now, it is her last semester and going home for good...I will miss her when she's gone...No more Ipoh lang to laugh with me!!! =( But I'm sure we will catch up over a cup of Ipoh white coffee when I head home next year =)

Chia Ling brought me another new friend...Selina...Another bright actuarial student! Although I don't really know her well, she was kind and nice enough to be my guinea pig and try my sago gula malacca! =) I think she was quite shock to see such an 'aunty' me when I started talking to Chia Ling! Hahaha. Luckily, she ain't leaving so soon yet but when it is time for her to fly home, I think I'll be sad. Another friend going home for good =( What makes it even harder is that she's from a different hometown but I'm sure we can always meet up in Ipoh or Malacca (especially I have yet to explore Malacca)

All the best to you both in your future undertakings and I'll miss you girls!!!!!

A friend in need, is a friend indeed

Do you have a friend that you particularly look for when you need to talk? Do you have a friend that you only look for when there is a gathering? Do you have a friend that you have lost contact with but he/she still lingers in your mind? Do you have a friend that you would rather forget than remember?

I have to admit that all my years living in a foreign land was not easy even up until today. But what made it easier was the love and care of one particular friend. She was always there when I needed someone to talk to and most of the time, I was bothering her with all my craps and more craps! Yet, she never complained and always try to get back to me a.s.a.p. And it is my bad that I always stop replying her most of the time =( At midst of all my craps, she didn't see me as a stupid girl, confused with all my problems but she saw everything positive about me. She has never failed to comfort me, telling me everything will be alright and reassure me that tomorrow will be a better day.

Friends like her is hard to find, even harder to forget...But I'm sure I wouldn't choose to forget about her cos after all, she would be the Godmother of my kids =) It is my blessing to have found a wonderful friend like her in my life and hopefully, we will continue to be best of friends in many, many, many years to come...

And this....is dedicated to Chee Su Ling =)

“Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change our friendship"

Friends that matter

During this time around, almost everyone is heading back to their hometown for a long deserved break.

But...

How does it feel to be back home? Has anything changed since the last time you were home? Has anyone changed since the last time you saw them? Did you catch up and have a good laugh with some old companies?

I haven't been back home for almost a year and from what I heard, things have changed back home. Or I should say...people changed. Sometimes, it's sad to hear stories of how long time friendships are broken, friends are drifting apart and how divided the group of friends have become. I'm sure everyone have and had lost a friend that is dear to you, but losing a close friend over a small matter is silly! Especially when you have known each other for ages!

I always know that my friends are part of me, they contributed to memories and made me who I am today. Unfortunately some left and some remains. And those that remains are those I cherish with all my heart. Each day, unknowingly, my mind would wonder of to times I spent with them-the heartbreaks, the laughters, the tears...How can someone forget and let go of friends that understands you in and out? New friends are gained along the way, but no one could ever see through my heart and mind like how my 'oldies' always do!

Cherish, love and appreciate is all you need to do.

I know this is the most random place to do a shout-out but I would like to thank Avinesh Kumar, who have been a wonderful friend to me all these years!

“Though we drifted apart in distance I still think of you as being right here. And although we have many new friends, it is our friendship that means the most to me.”

Double =(

Just finished my first paper today. On one hand, I'm glad it's done and over. On the other hand, I didn't know what to feel after stepping out of the exam room. And that worries me!

If you think you have done well, you would walk out with a smile and confidence that "Yes, I did well!". But when I walked out, there wasn't any "Yes" feeling, neither the feeling of "Oh no!" So what does that mean? Did I do well or not? I don't even know myself. I have never felt so confused about my feelings after an exam! The questions weren't hard but it was tricky. I studied hard for it but yet there were no confidence I nailed it. Sometimes, it made me wonder, whether I should be putting so much effort, and in the end only to feel like I haven't done much.

Can't do much now. But only to pray and hope for the best and say goodbye to Distinction! =(

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Nothing in this world is permanent.

I do understand that fact especially when I have encountered so many awakenings about life. But it is easier said than done.

It was not a big issue for me because I had a back-up plan for it. I prepared myself for the worst, but when reality hits, I realised that I am affected by it in some kind of way or rather.

I'm returning to another cross-road in my life. What should I do? Which path should I take?

Or rather...

I should be grateful for everything and leave everything up to God.

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Nothing should be in my priority list in this two weeks besides studying for exams...

There is always a BUT...

You just can't help and window shop occasionally, especially when Christmas is just six weeks away! I have so so so much to buy this year...not only for myself but also for others :( After exams, I will definately hit the city and shop, shop, shop!!! Before that, I need to set up a foundation - 'The LTY Foundation' for stress relief ;) Please support this foundation in anyway!

Wishlist

- Camera

- Bags

- Converse shoes and heels

- Summer dresses and skirts

- Jeans mini skirt

Not much rite??? I'll probably add more later. Can't think straight at the moment due to high level of stress! =)